finally no more work for e rest of e wk...can finally slowly take my time during qt. man i haf this wordpower challenge comin soon...well, ive memorised haf of e 20 verses...hehe..half more...scared when i memo e other half i forget e other half. =)

man...jesus touched me during work...when i was alone...felt so refreshed and awake n loved! :D how i wish e presence will nv leave me even for 1 sec..haha...i noe im dreamin but hey...faith makes e invisible visible! ;)
although i feel him everyday yet i cannot feel him every sec...*sigh*...but...haha, e day wil eventually come! =)

yea, during QT i once again felt his touch!...woohoo! i jus hope e fire keeps burnin, no e same everyday but stronger everyday! who cares abt work? as long is i feel close to him and he to me, nth else matters.

cant wait for service every wk....wahaha...2 more daes...yipeee! this sat got Sun's concert at esplanade dunno whether to go or not...im not into pop...no offense, diff ppl have diff interests. i feel to loved to be even bothered by e things of the world..im already satisfied yet at e same time i want more of jesus each day! =)

man im drying up again...my work is taking too much of my time. ive hardly and time for Jesus. if this continues i might consider quitting. i cant live 1 day w/o QT, tts where i get my strength frm as my Elder Brother said, "Whoever drinks of e water given by me shall nv thirst again".

man, i broke up yesterdae. i started becoming -ve at night..mayb bcos im too tired..

every night i struggle to keep awake to spend time with him. n every morning i haf 2 struggle to wake up. 1 day w/o jesus is like 1 day w/o life. again god scolded me yesterdae n woke me up...he asked me jus 1 qn n i was deeply impacted..."do u love me or not". nowadays im tryin to get closer to jesus

thank you for always being there 4 me even when i draw back at times...i can live w/o a home, i can live w/o a family, i can live w/o money, i can live w/o friends but i cannot live without u. just as u sacrificed ur all for me, im willing to sacrifice my all for u to be with u forever!

still tryin to find my lost bible...i meant a lot to me. God gave it to me..and it has many memories of my time spent with Jesus. jesus is God made visible...he's e life n e ressurection. my redeemer. forever i will love u, even when i dun understand ur purpose for me...cos i trust in You.

i look forward to e end...tts when i see u. i look forward to my retirement cos tts when i can spend my whole day everyday with u. i look forward to my death, cos tts e beginning of another life with u, i will no longer seek u then bcos i would have already found u!

Jesus, love ya! =)

problems problems n more problems...man i jus love em! jesus overloaded me wif problems so tt i could b overloaded by faith n love n hope! if there were no problems on earth there wouldnt be a need for hope faith n love!

lost my bible, short of cash for laptop, mum got hbp, friend turn hostile towards me as a result of reaching out to him, caught a flu bug, had a slight fever, headache! yea! i was not shaken a least bit...instead i sought e one who can take off of em away! last wk my qt was slacking...i was drawing away from God for 3 daes as i din haf my reg qt. my lifetime prayer to jesus is, "jesus, if in anyway im drawing away frm u i pray tt ull do whatever necessary to bring me back even when i dont know tt im drawing away. if i refuse then force me to go back with u bcos tts my hearts desire..the body is weak but my spirit is willing!" in these problems ive not grown weaker but ive grown stronger for e Lord, my love tank is bigger now bcos of Him. i long for more challenges now as i long to be closer to my loved one. :)

"ull nv leave me nor forsake me, in e same way make me nv leave u nor forsake u cos i love u e way u first loved me. even though im not up to ur lvl of love jesus, i know tt i will one day." its amazing how in so much conflict in my life there's peace hope love n faith! even when e earth shakes i will not b shaken for i stand on e rock of my salvation, my fortress, my strong tower n my refuge in times of need.

2 nights ago, jesus rekindled fire in me. all i did was to take e first step to pray...my sooner enough i was spending time with e Lord tt night. i couldnt sleep till 3 cos his presence nv left me..tt was when i knew how much i mean to jesus n he'll nv let me go even when i try to let go he'll pull me back. then he told me in my spirit: e more problems u have means e more valuable to e one who made u. problems my God r merciful n makes u stronger, problems by Satan destroys u.

yesterdae during cg meetin after seeking god for strength i finally brought a fren to cg, chiat how. yesterdae i then realised tt i used a wrong strategy to bing him to jesus. i knew then tt i had to bring him to cg first as its less "threatening" n more homely n comfortable. he told me to take it slowly, one step at a time. "if u run too fast, watch out tt u dun fall off a cliff". although chiat how has not made e decision but by faith hel'll b set free frm e world. e most hardest step is e first step, therefore i believe its easier to bring him to salvation than yesterdae. ive gone past e hardest part, hence the rest will be easy, but not effort-free.

its very hard for Jesus to touch u if u dunno him, jus as u dun anyhow touch a stranger in e street tt u dunno. to find love, u must ask Love for love, ask Peace for peace, 4 God is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, gentleness, self-control, faithfulness, goodness. "u dun receive bcos u do not ask, when u ask u ask with wrong motives". also i wanna add to this verse, u dun eceive bcos u ask e wrong person-u dont ask a toilet cleaner to sell u perfume neither do u ask a fishmonger for a porkchops. =)

y do things haf to go wrong now..? ist Jesus told me durin qt to reach out to a fren only to find out tt i dun see any difference in him...den my parents did not haf enough money to get me e laptop i want...den my mum has high blood pressure...n during this wk all these 3 problems started appearin after i lost my bible.

e bible was my life...my weapon...satan man ure damn smart.....u knew i couldnt do w/o my bible so u had to pour ur **** on me...nvm...faith conquers all! its really in this time tt i know jesus is telling me to draw closer to him n to rely on him even more...hes telling me apart frm living off bible...i had to live off him for he is e Word becoming flesh...

e good news is t despite all tts goin wrong in my life...I AM NOT SHAKEN!!! from e bottom of my heart, "why dun u jus gif up satan, u noe its impossible to overcome me...for greater is He tt is in me than he who is in e world...its over u hear me !?!"

jesus is e only one who can love me with perfect love, n im in love with him. i nv fall out of love with him...cos its impossible to live w/o him. e more satan ruins my life e more closer i get to God! im born to overcome n not to be overcomed!!! after i pull out of this mess, i wont get any glory but jesus will get ALL glory..e more problems satan creates for me e more God is glorified...

im not gonna do anything abt my problems anymore...i know i cant do it w/o jesus tts y im handling it to him for he knows best! =) seriously i haf no worry or fear bcos its IMPOSSIBLE for me to fear n to worry when God is already in me!!!

ive not been spendin time with God 4 e last few daes...and recently yesterdae...God rekindled e fire in me...=) i received a revelation tt: "the closer u r to God, e greater e impact when u draw away frm him cos u mean more to him. jus as when a casual fren leaves u...ur emotion wont b as strong as when a close fren/loved one leaves u.

normally e mooment i close my door...w/o even thinkin of god, he would oredy come n fill me with his presence even b4 i even start qt. den few daes ago i no longer feel him as close...tt wAs when i noe tt i needed him back...tt was when i realise how i can lose my happiness n peace w/o God. i praYed n asked him to help me draw back to him...

by his grace he came to me n not i go to him...i felt really bad how i left him alone for 2 daes n yet he was tryin to reach me...tts how great and awesome his love is...even when u leave him he wont leave u...

right now i can sense him again...im back...not hes back cos hes always there...he loves u to much to let u go. :) n he gave me a new language in e spirit...a new tongue tt was totally diffrent frm my past tongue i used to communicate with him. indeed e old has gone n the new has come!

Glory to God!

havent been active in qt lately...feel like im gettin drier.

my fren finally responded to me sms although his heart is still hardened. it doent matter if he despise me...as long God is not mocked...i still love jesus more than anythin.

everyday i pray hoping tt God will restore my passion for him. e last time i had qt with Him was 2 daes ago...i want to go back into his presence yet i do not know how...

but certainly im excited for e finale on e bok of isaiah this tues...yea! =) there's really 3 ppl i wanna thank....medeline, rachael n my CGL evan...for giving me strength to charge up my faith...jus as e parable of e persistent widow said...e more i persists to God for him to be alive in my life again...i will see him. e more i persist God to help me reach out to my fren...ill will indeed receive e harvest prepared for me.

even though i may b workin tomo...e only thing i wanna think abt is jesus! jesus, even though u may seem far away frm me i will still seek u n think abt u as though e were beside me....! u have said tt u will nv leave me nor forsake me...now its my turn to say to u tt ill nv leave u nor forsake u =)

no matter how busy u may be, if u gif ur time to God he will give his time to u.

being unique is not being perfect, but being different, accepted by someone special and being better than urself. ive learnt during qt tt jesus will b with u whether u like it or not ;) he sticks to me like glue n vice versa.

walking with God is nv boring, e moment u accept love u will become love. u become wad u believe...

so far e fren i reachin out tio is ignorin me...well, as e Word goes all these will happen for those who put their hope n trust in God, bcos ure no longer part of e world. im now a citizen of heaven and im an alien to this world...rejected i may be....but nothing else matters to me bcos in Him im complete...in him im satisfied. e world can change opinions but it cant change facts...e fact tt i and God have a relationship is undeniable...ppl may sae bad abt me...yes they will say...but as e fact goes...what ppl thinks is an opinion. thoughts r always opinions...but e thoughts of God are revelations...:D

in this time of trouble...im stronger in e lord...i now depend more on him...i wont mind giving up everything for god, i gave up my job once...and i got back double...i gave my finances and i got back double...wadeva u give up for e lord...u will not be disappointed...ull experience his abundance and blessings and fulfilment of his love through faith for w/o faith its impossible to please god. ;)

thank u jesus for giving me a time of trouble for i know after this ill b more mature and more and more like u. ;) glory to god. i wanna draw closer to u each day...:D halelujah! oven though i feel u everyday...i can say somehow i miss u...i want to be complete with e complete jesus...then i will finally see ur face! =)

w/o ALL of ui ill nv be satisfied...:)

man i learnt something yesterdae. during qt God asked me to reach out to a backsliding fren of mine. little did i know my glory scared him off...then i remembered jesus. in order to reach out to ppl u must first humble urself, step down n bring down ur glory for e eyes in this fallen world see w/o god's glory.

god may want u to reach out to ppl, yes, its his way. but we have to convert it to suit e world. god's ways are e highest and e most glorious...but sometimes i learned tt it mayb too much for e lowly to take. in e same way jesus was full of glory in heaven, if he came with all his glory to earth then we wouldnt be living anymore, we would instead be judged e moment we were born and most of us would already be separated from God.

i may not experience earthly pride but ive experienced spiritual pride...tt is y we haf to humble ourselves. and tt w/o love its impossible to please God.

prayin now tt i can attend e book of isaiah later. it starts at 730 and i end at 6. i dun wish to go to e overflow rm...i want to be in e holy oh holies...at e front row seat in god's house!

i feel jesus close to me, although i blew things up last night i believe bcos of tt im stronger! Indeed a friend of Jesus cannot be a friend of e world!

e world may hate me bcos i bear His name, but with Jesus, nothing else matters...i am satisfied eternally! in Him i am complete! e world cannot satisfy u forever bcos its not MEANT TO BE!

Jesus i love u to e very end, even when there's no end. I need u more each day! I need u everyday! Ure all i want! Ure all i need! Jesus ure my everything!!!

man i omos overslept todae for work cos my qt ended abt 2 yesterdae. anyway im used to it. everytime i wake up late bcos of qt, god will always make me reach on time by his love and grace. the only time ill nv be late after oversleeping is when i do it for god, by spending time with him every night.

cant wait to attend part 2 of e book of isaiah tom. so fun! hehe =)

wow! e easter drama at e SIS was fabulous!...it really touched me deeply....
got to watch e Passion movie....cos my mum's friend got us a vcd...the quality was not good...but nonetheless...God nv ceases to amaze me as He really touched me.

my walk with God is really wonderful, very soon ill haf to create a better word than friend...maybe...dunno cant think...words cant express his love for me...the most fun time is not with my friends but with Jesus. indeed when God is with u nothing else matters.

Satisfaction is not found in e world but in Him our Creator. Our parents did not create us, they merely gave birth to us. The souls was there b4 e body just as God was there b4 e foundations of e world. recently i have received a breakthrough. i had a fren who was very anti-god. tt made me feel very sad cos Jesus is my friend n if anyone were to reject Him, ill feel rejected too. but recently by e AMAZING and not CRAZY grace of God, he responded with a thank u to my SMSes.

I had a dream, in tt dream i see my fren beside me in e church auditorium, worshipping God. i strongly hold on to tt dream, even if i die not accomplishing it at least i know tt ive lived my life to fulfil tt dream. and i can already sense tt dream coming to pass. indeed those who earnestly seek e purposes of God, u WILL NOT be disappointed. easter was great! i was meaningful how e greatest love in e world is for us for FREE. startin my QT soon i cant wait to meet with God. =) YeA!

3 nights ago had a fun time with God durin QT. while i was talkin to him askin abt e verse which he showed me...den suddenly my stomach made this very funny squeaky snd...then suddenly god n i were quiet.

den i sensed he started to laugh...i started laughing too...but of course not too loud cos it was 2am in e morning and if ppl hear me laugh they'd think im crazy...

i started jokin with god n said glory to god for e gift of hearing and praise him for creatin sounds of "all types" :D i started feeling closer to God. he was closer to me than my best friend. of course no one can replace him as my best friend.

recently attended e first "Isaiah Trilogy" conference in my church...it's so great n exciting...learning abt e past tt brought abt e present which influences e future...:D cant wait for easter service this weekend...! yeepee! =)

woohoo...workin now...haha although yesterdae i only spent 3 hrs sleepin, bcos of my qt tt is...i feel im more awake than anyone else! n im excited for service 2nite! :D

nv felt God so close to me b4...haha i can feel him now...:D
since i started spending time with god more frequently, i felt his love everyday.
he's my driving force and my hope.

e extent of his love stretches to e extend of his sufferings...he did it out of love n w/o love its impossible to please god 4 god is love.

easter is comin...its time for me to reach out to the unreached...i wanna do something great for him bcos i love him n he loves we...we r a connection tt is unbreakable.

each time i accomplish something great thru him i would ask for something greater and each time my trust towards him will increase and he will be happier each time i seek to do his will. e one thing tt NO ONE can take away from me is my relationship with god.

my lifetime prayer is for god to reveal himself thru me...when ppl see me they dont see andrew but they see jesus...for hes my role model n i wanna b like him. i wanna behave like jesus i wanna do e things tt jesus did...i want to do it all for the one i eternally love...Jesus u r my one and my all! u make my life complete..u r always there 4 me. each time i fall u lift me up higher again n again...u nv cease to amaze me with ur love. ure more than a savior to me ure my brother...ure my friend...and u r my God. =)
glory to god 4eva n eva n eva n eva n eva n eva...i cant wait to spend e rest of my life with u...u r e closest thing to me than anything else in e world.

oh how great n awesome is his love...his love is perfect, unconditional, eternal...i oso dunno wad to sae oredy...words cant express my love 4 him n his love for me. everydae of my life im gettin happier n happier cos i noe tt im 1 dae closer to my love!...
Give thanks for He is good, His love endures forever!

my message was too good to be true. indeed glory to God! havin fasted for three days i finally found favor in e eyes of my Father and he used me through his spirit to preach a good message on a temptation overcomer.

however, havin e fallen nature in me, unintentionally i took god's glory away by accepting n telling myself, "I did a good job". yes, I, not God.

after realising tt wad was tot to be a struggle between god and satan, i was in e crossfire. both god and satan tried to use me. but tt night durin my QT, i spent 1 hr repenting b4 god..he forgave me. =) not only that he turned my sins around back ONCE MORE for his glory. i soon found out tt when u fail to gif god glory, n after repentance, he will get back DOUBLE e glory...! HaLeLuJaH!

he gave me this verse: Romans 7:17-25. after tt i knew tt God did not use the prideful and excellent to do his will, but he uses the lowly, broken, humble and those with a contrite heart to do GREAT things! for i was down but he has lifted me up! i was weak but now ive grown STRONGER!!!! and i will continue to grow STRONGER!!! till im like christ! even mistakes give God e glory bcos he's my God and he is Lord of All! we will nv grow if we dun fail. "A successful man is someone who fails, but rises HIGHER each time!" Now i no longer fear failure..for He has shown me His glory and he has Redeemed me once more. :D