wahahas my bdae jus ended...my grandparents gave me 50+ my parents gave me 50+ n treated me to a meal at swensens woth 50+...so blessed =)

yesterdae durin cg my cg celebrated my bdae too...gave me a card n a gift....so touched...:) indeed this yr's bdae for me was a different one, it was my first birthdae celebrated with my new cg. my wish is tt e next time i celebrate my bdae wif them, e cg would b doubled. tt ill b more anointed to reach out n impact lives, e be more filled wif e spirit n 2 have a deeper n greater hunger for world missions.

my cgl jus came back frm Isreal. i saw e photos of e tomb of jesus, e sea of galilee, e dead sea, jordon river, mount of olives n so much more. man, i would love to go there one day. e moment u step into isreal, u will b under Abraham's covenant of blessings...ive heard of ppl goin there...b a blessing n later when they come back their church attendance doubled, their business flourished...etc. wad was interesting abt one of e stories i heard frm my cgl was tt of King Herod. she went into his room, n it had a spa, sauna, a rm for cold bath n a shower rm. i was so fascinated on how e romans really enjoyed life. wad was most interesting was tt in e bathrm, King Herod's bathtub was so small, so cute..haha even e entrances to his rm was not tt high. :D

hope to go there one day...hehehe. wad really spurred me to go was e Wailing Wall of Isreal. ppl go there prayin n seekin e lord. e moment their hands rested on e wall, His presence will come almost immediately n in a powerful way. ppl will start cryin,etc. it will all happen so quickly. i noe of a brother whose back was instantly healed when Rev Ulf Ekman prayed for him in e Jordon River.

So excited...i feel greater way it is to be blessed than to go to e blessed land under e Blessings of Abraham. =)

waha its been long since i last wrote on this blog...keke =) e day after emerge conference i went for service, the next day for FOP at SIS n e followin day 4 youth service again at my church. wahaha its e longest period of time i spent with God :D...hehe 6 days in a row! =)

yesterdae i went for Ps Christian Alkerheim's service. there i dedicated my life to missions. His power came on me when Ps Christian prayed for me. Felt so anointed. my hands jus couldnt stop even after i had gotten up :D

as i went home, my fren who stays near my hse told me tt i could come over n "chill" at his hse. even though he stayed near my hse, but bcos it was a few stops away i decided to take e bus. spendin abt $1++. reached his door i called him to open e door cos his doorbell spoil. there at e doorstep he told me i cant come in cos his parents dun allow. i felt so sad n crushed, okay mayb not so extreme, jus sad n some other feeling i cant put in words ;) i told myself tt i couldnt spend anymore money on bus so i took a 20min walk home. on e way i told Jesus, "i'm very sad". then He asked me, "is ur fren more important than me?"

"Is his PS2 more exciting than e life im gonna give u? (missions)"
"no"

then i calmed down n lightened up. =)

"Dun be sad, u haf me. Go ahead, go home n play ur computer". (Those were e exact words he said to me.)

i said, "u cant be serious".

he kept quiet. so i told myself, or rather, he told me or...i dunno both? "God is not a man tt He should lie". :D i went home by faith. true enough, no one was at home! wahahaha! :D YeA! at was already 7pm. after my fellowship n lunch with frens frm another cg. cant believe i enjoyed my game till 10pm! b4 my parents came back at 1030! hehehe =)

Indeed, he works in ways we cannot see, yet when its revealed, we marvel at its glory n magnificence. =) cant wait to begin my first missionary journey...tts e kind of life i want. true life, when u become a blessing, where blind eyes r opened, deaf hear, lame walk n even e dead rise! :D cant wait! wahaha :D

True life is found in eternity when life in this perishing world ceases! =) Yea!

Emerge Conference has ended! but e fire has jus begun...expectin God to use me greatly this yr...in my poly...REVIVAL! REVIVAL! REVIVAL! =) despite long queues, hot, sweaty, stuffy..for hours in e queue, i feel its worth it..indeed when ure hungry for MORE, MORE, MORE! nothin can come against ur way...:D

e Word itself was life changin, each session took me a level higher...on e first night we experienced the Healing Anointing, after Dr Roberts prayed for e anointing to b upon us, we laid hands on our neighbours n prayed for them...tt was when i felt sth ive not experienced for a long time! my hands were electrified, but not shocked, felt fire on my hands tt did not burn!...tt was when i noe tt im goin HIGHER, HIGHER, n HIGHER with my walk with God. both my palms were so filled with e Fire of the Holy Spirit...sth tt i long to feel again...sth tt made an impact in my mind forever...tt touch, so soft, so gentle, so warm n loving...when i prayed...was not enough i feel, i want MORE, MORE, MORE! i wait for the day my entire body is filled with His touch n presence n fire, not jus my palms...when u feel it, u want more, more, more of it!

even as i type this i oredy feel Him close to me...tt night Ps Kong took a guitar, sat on e steps of e stage. e entire auditorium was quiet, he played a song, "i have come, to bow down, at your feet, Lord Jesus. In Your presence there's fullness of joy. There is nothing, there is no one...I take pleasure, in worshipping you..." then tears jus came frm my eyes...it was so strong...so thick, jus talkin abt it draws HIs presence to me...
frm tt day on,, i long for more, ive learnt to grab hold of Him when His presence is there, cos ull nv noe when itll come again. not everytime u seek Him, ull find Him. ive really treasured His presence, e strength n anointing tt flows frm it...

2nd night was great too, had e talentime, indeed, a talent's potential is nv fully released unless there's e anointing, e supernatural :D i saw them sing, dance, etc. n i jus gave God all e praise. indeed, we shall do what e world claims impossible, we will be the HEAD, n not e TAIL, we shall b ABOVE, n NOT beneath! im glad to be livin in e world of miracles, e supernatural, e world of e impossible...nothing can change e fact tt i love Him who did so much in my life...walking with God is always so exciting! u get to do things u nv thought u would, u get to do thing far beyond e human mind...things tt u could nv even imagine of...its only when i believe, then i see!

I don't see to believe, I believe to see! im willing to give my frens, my family, my relationships, my success, my failures, my persecution, my life, my all, jus to be with God whom i love. even if following Him, will make me lose everything, n gain nothing, no regrets...i love Him, n love itself overcomes e world! what ppl think dun affect me, e bad things tt happen to me dun affect me, cos im with Him who overcame the world. He who raised e dead can raise any dead dreams, dead visions, dead goals in life!

last night was e finale, although yesterdae only had 1 session, but it was enriching, learning abt e presence of God, e Holy Spirit being a youthful person for Jesus himself died at 30+, how dreams will come to a point of total failure, tts when there a higher level of trust n believe n faith we all need, to believe for a resurrection. e Bible said, "those who endure TO THE END will be saved", not "those who at least endure will b saved", but TO THE END! to me, until i leave this world, there's no end for my dreams, visions, goals! "what good is a man, when he gains the whole world but loses his soul?"

eternal life starts now, there no death in eternal life, no death in friendship, no death in dreams, no death in hope, no death in love, etc.

"I love you Jesus. I love you Jesus, And I will worship you with all my heart, for you are worthy. And I will bow to you my perfect King. Jesus..." "ure my best fren, u saved me even when i did not know u, u knew me the moment i was born. Jesus i need you everyday...Jesus, jus typin this makes me miss you even i noe tt ure so close to me...i jus feel like cryin..." " i can lose everything, but i cannot lose you, i cannot lose your love!" "i shall be in you and you in me, even on my death bed i shall think of you cos i noe tt when i return, ull be there to embrace me with your arms...when i go up, n i see u...ill make sure i run to u faster than u can run to me..."

"i noe u wont betray me...i love u to e extend tt even is u make my life miserable, when ure presence is no longer with me, ill still love You" "when ure not happy with me, ill still love you" "when u cast me aside, ill still love you" "in your punishment, ill still love you"! "not tt ull betray me, but its just e extend of my love for you frm e bottom of my heart" =)

service later is gonna be great! haha...experiencing Him 4 days a row oredy...:D